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Bittersweet Magnet

I come and go in and out of people’s lives so regularly that I often wonder if my presence was really felt or if I will actually be missed? I do however, revel in the fact that each stop I make, there are always a few beautiful people who stand out amongst the many. These relationships and life decisions tend to follow a continuous cycle.

[I land>I struggle>I finally make connections>I get antsy>I make plans to leave>I begin the process out>I start to feel sad at the losses of friends once again>I get excited about my new adventures>I leave.] [I land>I struggle>I finally make connections>I get antsy>I make plans to leave>I begin the process out>I start to feel sad at the losses of friends once again>I get excited about my new adventures>I leave.]

 

I know my cycle. I know myself. I know that it has nothing to do with being unsettled or unhappy much to the surprise of many. It is because there is so much to see, so many people to meet, mountains to hike, seas to swim, hands to hold, lips to kiss, animals to snuggle, personal growth to make, with so little time in our short lives. I WANT IT ALL.

I like life wild. I like not knowing what’s around the bend. I like the struggle and the mystery. I like slowly and organically building friendships. I like saying goodbye only because the reunion is all the more sweet.

These are the last days of Round 2, Washington DC. I am smelling the flowers differently, I am appreciating people more, I am seeing the city with sad, but loving eyes. Every time I leave a place, my heart breaks a little. Likewise, every time I leave a place my heart soars for new adventures on the horizon. My heart hurts for those I’ll miss, but it is filled with joy for those I’ll meet.

I am a magnet, filled with simultaneous opposing emotions. Therefore, in my last days of DC, give me an extra long hug, for it may be awhile before we hug again. Tell me you love me and you’ll miss me, because I promise you, if I call you my friend, you will be sorely missed. I’m in the bittersweet part of my cycle. Friends scrambling to spend time with me in my last few days. I cherish all of you in DC and those across the globe who have touched my life. I am blessed to have the heart of a wanderer for my life is intense and beautiful. I’m off to smell the flowers and revel in the architecture of this amazing city for a few more days…

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